Do I have depression?

Im afraid i think you are. I myself have struggled with depression i still am to this day.the hardest part is to get help which i strongly advise you do. you dont think it could get worse but it does if you dont get help now . i attempted suicide twice and blow off the appointments that they gave me when i recovered thinking it wont happen again its just a phase im going true. man i realize now that i was extremely wrong the pain i cause to myself , family and friends was horrible , and once i got help things felt at first nothing was working but now i still struggle somedays worse then others but not nearly as bad as i did which im grateful for. please get help dont try to ride it out i beg of you